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yesterday was a well-spent day :)
Went watch Terminator Salvation and Night @ the Museum 2 with Jer.
Both shows are simply fabulous :))
After which, we went to Seasons for some food.
Had nice fat potato wedges (Jer's Fav), yummielicious Cream of Mushroom (Our Fav), nicenice hawaiian pizza :)
and of course, nice swensens' icecream :))
then we went home to go through some cds.
Kind of relive our childhoods :))
so nice!
then went for crabs for dinner before going home.
:))

Life with you can be so simple, yet makes me so happy :))

Turning 21 :)

Yups. Am turning 21 in less than half an hour's time :)
but I think I've already gotten all my blessings and celebrations done beforehand lers :)
thanks to fellow PRFs; namely ...
Florence Siew
Quek Peiling
Soo Suxian
Yvonne Peh
Eileen Tay
Cheng Liyi
For the really sweet celebration.
and you girls ah,
the video nearly made me cry.
( I had to hold back my tears.)
thank you girls for the KTV treat, and the stars balloons!!
I simply love it.
I know I wasn't the most enthu birthday girl yesterday.
thanks for bearing with me, fellow PRFs.
and thank you to ah bon, liyi and clement for the pwetty wallet :)
thank you all for sticking by me all these while and for your concern, girls :)
oh! thank you to EUGENE toh who cldn't make it.
I know you care too :)
get well soon ya?
and thanks to ANU!
for trying to keep me company with the nuts game and for trying ur best to make the atmosphere as hype as possible :)
thank you people :))
really. thank you.

and of course,
I must thank the person who took pains to convince me that I'm nuts not wanting to celebrate my 21st birthday.
and whom happens to be my most beloved boyfriend, Jeremy Lim Chuan Ghai.
thank you for the gorgeous necklace :)
thank you for the 21 lovely red roses.
thank you for making a surprise appearance.
thank you for volunteering to be my voice when I lost it :)
thank you especially for standing by me and supporting me in all that I do and making sure that I'm happy :)
thank you, dear.

and so, yups. thank you everyone for making it possible :)
I cldn't have been happier.
I love you all! :))

and, I thank God for putting all of you in my life.
I really feel more than blessed :)
thanks.

I'll be away for the weekend. :)
hopefully everything goes well.

It's not difficult at all; just try harder...

it's OVER :))

it's finally over!
it's been way too long a period that I've been eating and studying at MACS almost every single day.
SO FATTENING can!
haha.
though I'm feeling kind of lousy for my paper today,
but I am glad that it is over :))

Boyfriend, thank you for making the effort to come over and celebrate the end of my exams with me.
thanks for cheering me up and believing in me :))
I LOVE YOU!! ^^

WHEE!! ^^

I CONQUERED THE M.A.B MONSTER today!!
never felt so happy in a long long time :))
ONE LAST ONE TO GO! :))

what to do?
Life just moves on, right?

oh wells.
you really didn't remember at all.

hmt paper is in one more day.
didn't do well for my individual project.
I need a miracle to help me through it.
No more breakdowns.
I'm sick of it already.
Am going to study somemore.
to quote my avid reader-unifren:
"Even though we may have lost the battle, we are going to win the WAR."
hopes tomorrow will be a better day.

happy 40th months

happy 40th monthsery. but you don't remember.

I MISS MY BF NA.

I miss my dearest boyfriend.
but I doubt that he knows.
maybe he knows; but not the extent of it.
I miss him when I am studying for my papers;
thinking if he's also rushing out his urgently-pending assignments.
I miss him when I am having my meals.
thinking if he remembered to eat in the midst of his busy schedule.
I miss him, simply all the time.
BOYFRIEND, I need a hug badly :'(

random tots.

just some random thoughts...

1. Exams are SO near.
yucks. hope it will be over soon.

2. Life sucks at the moment.
but I do try to find some happiness from this dark moment of my life.
thank you to my most beloved boyfriend and my dearest friends for your support :)

3. and ya, I'm turning twenty-one in a month's time.
thanks to those who have asked about how I wana celebrate.
and no, I really don't feel like celebrating it.
I just wana get out of this dark moment.

4. feeling mentally and emotionally tired.
must cheer up soon.
jiayou limjiaxin.

I need a miracle.

I think I need a miracle badly.
a BIG one is needed badly.

I have to make a big decision.
One choice made, would require a great deal of sacrifice.
Or I could choose the easier way out.
and be the self-centered and selfish me.
I wish there was an option C.
perhaps, that option C is a miracle bahs.
Guess, I'll go pray about it.

Lord, if things can't be easier, make me stronger.

:))

AHHHHHHH. finally home sweet home after a long long day! :((

Two things that didn't make my day :

1. Been approached by the G.H.O.S.T.
she was like practically haunting me!
made me so paranoid!!
she approached me and tried to pinch me with an evil look on her face can!
I'm NOT exaggerating!
ask ronald. he witnessed it ALL. >.<
horrible shit.

2. Bad Strain of my shoulder.
I'm practically feeling like a handicapped lo.
any movement give rise to pain.
even breathing in deep.
Goodness.

Things that made my day :DD

1. it's my LAST day of SCHOOL! :DD *blinkblink*
2. Milo treat from Ronald who claims that it's for not seeing each other regularly enough >.<
3. I got to sit and chat with my favourite people in class!! :))
4. My sweet friends who helped me print my notes so that I can start on my revision :D

Wells. Though things aren't going great for me at the moment,
but I really pray and hope that they will turn out for the better.
'Cause I really feel tired :(

IT'S overrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr :DD

it's finally OVER!!
Gosh. it was hell.
But I thank God for putting people like my most beloved BOYFRIEND, eileen and emily in my life!
They really helped me through this hell of a time.
Boyfriend had to stay up late for two consecutive days to keep me company despite having to go school really early on the next.
AND! eileen and emily stayed up with me to help and teach me stuffs even though they could well be spending time sleeping.
SO sweet right?
I was totally touched :'(

a big thank you to boyfriend who sacrificed his sleep and for his patience with me.
a big thank you to eileen who stayed up late and went without lunch all because of me.
a big thank you to emily who stayed up late too and stayed back in school to guide me in my work
and a big thank you to eileen again for her "SHOPAHOLIC for the SHOPAHOLIC" email. which really made me smile :))
and of course, the biggest thankyou goes to God,
who put these nice people in my life to help me through such a tough time.
I wouldn't be able to do everything if not for Him.
:))

>.<

sometimes, I find that life is kind of unfair.
but, whose is fair?
and things tend to happen at the most important time of your life when you're supposed to be happy.
good timing sense uh?

I'm just monologue-ing here.
'Cause I'm dreading things and I'm definitely dreading going for my mktg meeting.
RAWRR!! :'((

:(

am sick.
still sick.
Need sleep.
Lots of it.
Need love.
Need tonnes of it.
:'(

HMT finally done!

HMT FINALLY DONE!
gosh. I feel like I'm dying now.
woohoo!
LET ME PASS PLEASE!! >.<

braindead

I'm SO sleepy.
didn't have a goodnite sleep.
and I haven't finish my HMT.
and so, I'm at home still, instead of rushing for MAB class.
I want to finish and sleep!!
but still, I have tuition this afternoon.
HOW AM I EVER GG TO SURVIVE IT ALL?
rawrrrrrrrrr!
God, I pray that everything will be just fine.
Amen.

Lord, I pray for more strength to get me through this. Amen.

another hectic day

today's actually quite a slack-ish day.
for one thing, I have no lessons today.
for the other, I didn't have any plans to fulfill.

and so, I spent my whole morning and afternoon doing more research for my HMT essay.
rawr! and I ended up with so many readings to complete.
sian.
but actually I found it quite interesting to read.
Spent abt two hours at Macs doing my readings.
:))

Some reminders to myself after some lessons learnt recently.

1. Must learn to believe in and not doubt my abilities.
2. Must learn to stop being paranoid about matters.
3. Must learn to trust people; but not blindly.
4. Must stop procrastinating about work that must be completed no matter what.
5. Must make time for ME-time! :))

:)) ahh.. that's about it :))

Random thoughts

Some random thoughts.
Rainy days evoke emotions :)

1. Am happy that I've lots of me-time today.
really caught up on my sleep and rest.
but still, I'm feeling sleepy.
God knows how much sleep I have been missing out on man :/
gee..

2. HMT deadline coming lers.
and am still kind of struggling with first draft.
man. limjiaxin stop procrastinating and get your work done! >.<

3. I miss going to singsong.
BEEN SO LONG since I last stepped into a KTV and sing my heart out.
sianned.
damn sian.
I NEED AN OUTLET BADLY!! :(

4. Am feeling overwhelmed by my workload that I don't wana care about anything else anymore.
am gg to dedicate this week and next week and the next next week to school work and my tuitions fully.
jiayou lim jia xin! :)

Am gg to do my MAB homework and revision before SLEEPING.
hehs. all the best to myself.
OH! just now was reading a chinese novel which I've been wanting to read since a long time ago.
there was this damn emotional part where it says . . .
思念是用脑子想，相处是用眼睛看，可以思念的爱情总是比较美的。
因为脑子容易美化，眼睛却只能笨拙的反应现实。
so emo right!! :/
but sometimes, it can be true :S